What Are PTSD Symptoms
(This is a very old post)
A couple of weeks ago I found out I suffer from PTSD. That my trauma’s started in my youth. Don’t get me wrong, I know my parents did the best they could. My mother is a very strong woman who did her best to do right by me and the family. My father admitted and he got help for his part in it all. After all, was said and done is a wonderful man now. This is not to talk about how bad my family was, it is to talk about how everything affected me and what are PTSD symptoms.
Do you identify with this video in any way? Please know there is help out there for you and I would love to help you find that. Where it started for me is being fed up with where my marriage is at and seeking Christian counseling. That is where I learned about what are PTSD symptoms with this video:
My trauma’s started early in life when I was a toddler I met my stepdad. I am not going to go into all the details that are not needed. Just to let you know it involved exposure visual adult sexuality then few later sexual abuse. I want to remind everyone. I am not trying to say my parents are monsters. They are far from that, my mom is a strong woman who did her best to protect me with everything that was going on around her. My stepdad had an illness that after all came out he got help for. I honor them for that!
But, because I or no one around me really understood how everything affected me I was left to struggle with the after-effects of everything. Which led me to many damaging relationships with men. Rape, sexual abuse, my anger coming out as abuse towards my first husband. Sexual issues in my current marriage. One thing after another right up until recently. I have about 45 or so years of living in survival mode to try to deal with.
What Are PTSD Symptoms and How To Be Grateful For Them
How to be grateful for all of this? I never thought I would put gratefulness with everything I have been through. I never dream I could come close to finding anything to be happy about ever. I lived with depression, pain, hurt, anger, fear for so long. I never knew any different. But, I am grateful for it all!
I am grateful for the experience because God uses all our experiences to His Glory. What a powerful thing it is to be used for His Glory! The creator of the world is wanting to use me with all my sins, all my pain, all my ugliness.
I am grateful for showing me what a wonderful husband God has given me. Even though my husband may have contributed to some of my trauma God once again is using that. He is using my husband and me for something wonderful. We do not see it yet, but we know God has a plan.
If you also suffer from PTSD or think you do, please seek help, professional help. You cannot do this alone. The place that God led my husband I to is Faithful Counseling