This chapter we find Abraham getting ready to sacrifice his promised son, his heir. I think about this command from God as a parent myself and wonder just how could this be? The thought of giving up one of my children because God told me to, I am not sure I could do it. But maybe because God gave Abraham Isaac in his old age it was easier for him to obey God. The thought that if God could do that, it is possible He could do it again.
I think about my own life, how many times have I done what God says just to obey? So much of my life I felt like I needed to be in control, to know what, and how something will happen. I thought it was the safe way to live as so much of my life things happened that were out of my control.
Before my teen years I was sexually abused by a family member, soon after a neighbor boy tried to take advantage of me. In my teen years a young man also sexually abused me along with my first husband. When I felt safe and could move on from all that I met my current husband and major sexual issues got in the way again.
I got to the point that so many things out of my control happened that I had to control everything in my life. Obeying God who did not reveal His plan was out of the question. I knew God was real, I had the God desire in my heart. But I was too hurt and afraid to blindly obey Him.
But, how did I get from my total mistrust to being able to trust and obey God today? I would say that it was seeing how God chose me and provided for me. There were so many times in raising my three adult children we should have been homeless. There was a time my children should have been placed in foster care. While it is true the circumstances warranted I needed to place only one, the other two stayed with me.
In seeing how God protected and orchestrated things around us I came to trust God. I learned that no matter what I did He would make His work out. Because of that I came to believe that doing things His way would make His plan much easier on me and those around us. That in doing things His way I gained peace, knowledge, hope beyond my understanding.
Are you able to obey God? Or are there thoughts and fears keeping you from trusting that God has this? Is there anything you would like prayer for, to talk about?
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