feeling unloved

In this chapter Jacob arrives at his relatives property and meets Rachel at the well. As he spends time with them he falls in love with Rachel. But when it comes time to marry her he is tricked and ends up with Leah. I am not really sure what was meant by saying Leah had bad eyes. Maybe that she was not as pretty as Rachel? Does not matter though because we see here that she is feeling unloved by husband

But God sees this, how she is being treated unfairly and He blesses her. The blessing may not be an easy blessing for her to live with. After all God cursed women with painful childbirth. Then raising all the children while Jacob is out in the fields. One thing that gets me though, if Jacob did not love her then why did make it so that she could have so many children? What was his thinking? I guess maybe it was that in culture back then they did not have a way to divorce yet. He was just doing his duty as a husband. 

Feeling Unloved by Husband

If he was just doing his duty just think of how devastating it was to Leah’s ego, her self worth. God knew she needed comfort. He also knew the bond between child and mother. To give her the love she yearned for, to show her that God sees her, He gave her many children. 

I know when I felt unloved by my husband, even by the world I yearned for a child. I felt like at least that way someone would love me. But, the truth of the matter is that kids are hard work! Giving birth hurts more than some of the worst physical pain that is out there. Then raising them to be responsible adults takes every inch of energy out of a person.

What kind of blessing is that then? It is one of the best blessings I think. I feel I need to acknowledge those who cannot have children though. I know He has blessings for you that are beyond what anyone could imagine. He has a plan for everyone who believes in Him. 

Feeling unloved by husband

Let’s go back to Leah though. She has not suffered through child birth and has all these kids to raise. I am pretty sure as she is human that at times she wondered if she could really make it through some days. She already was self conscious I am sure because of her looks and how Jacob complained about marrying her. Now her husband only sleeps with her out of duty and these kids are underfoot all the time. Even  resenting her as I am sure all kids go through those feelings at times. 

feeling unloved by husband
feeling unloved by husband

feeling unloved by husband

Even through these struggling circumstances the Bible says God kept blessing her. He did not change the situation, maybe He even compounded it. But, because He had a plan and He saw she needed someone in her life to love her. He gave her child after child. 

What I take from this chapter is that sometimes God’s blessings can add more responsibility. When that happens we may turn to grumbling against God. But if we can be like Leah and see each and every new child as God’s blessing what better attitude could that give us. Maybe God has you living in some poor conditions. If we look past the circumstances and see even the small blessings can help make things more bearable. 

Are you able to look past your circumstances and see some positive. Something, some how see God’s hand is there with you still? If you need someone to pray and talk with you I am here for you. 

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Feeling Unloved In Marriage

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When I meet with a husband and a wife whose marriage is unraveling, … and wife, for the first time in a long time, begin to pour the love of Christ into each other.


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I am alive today

I am alive today

As I sit here with my knees hurting ever so bad, I think of how grateful I am alive today. At least I am alive to feel this pain, to suffer through the circumstances. God’s purpose in my life has not been fully fulfilled yet. I still have things to learn so He can use me in his plan for my life. This morning I would like to share some of my past posts. Some of the reasons I am thankful I am where I am today. Some of my testimony of the direction God’s purpose has been taking. To show how my life is a testimony for Jesus.

I am alive today
A road going through the woods with the words I am grateful for being alive today. It is my joy and pleasure to live another wonderful day.

I am alive today

What about you? Are you able to look back through your life and see the direction God is taking you? What are your passions, what you love? What about what makes you angry, so fed up to see injustice in the world? What experiences and circumstances have you lived through? Have you ever wondered what is God’s purpose for your life? I know I am alive today so God can show that my testimony for Jesus. To share my story and how God has provided, shaped, and given me strength through it all. Do you think you have a life story that could help others see Jesus through it? There is always room here for other peoples stories. Just reach out to me here, lets talk about it:Prayer/Support 

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Christian Testimonials Of People Experiencing God’s Incredible Love!God Loves You For Who He IS – Not Because Of What You Do Or Don’t Do … If you are interested in having a testimony, sermon or teaching transcribed to print …
Testimony Of God’s LoveGod has delivered me and I shall glorify Him. It gives me unspeakable joy to testify of God’sgoodness in my life. In April of 1999 my life was falling apart in all
Christian Testimony, Stories Of God’s LoveA christian testimony is a powerful tool in pointing others to the savior.
Powerful Testimony: Sharing God’s Love in the Midst of Tragedy …Dec 25, 2004  Ken Ham interviews Frank and Sue Zitzman about the tragic death of their 17- year-old son and the way God is using them to minister to others …
To Experience God’s LoveApr 21, 2014  Colin Smith recounts testimonies of God’s love, gives steps to experience more of God’s love, and gives two responses to God’s love.
Our Lives Are a Testimony to Jesus and the Power of Love and …Nov 21, 2018  It is with thanksgiving that I celebrate ALL those who have inspired me in the doing of the work of Camp and Retreat Ministries. Your life and …
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Hung on a tree

Good Friday Holiday

Isaiah 53:3-9 3 He was despised and rejected— a man of sorrows, acquainted with deepest grief. We turned our backs on him and looked the other way. He was despised, and we did not care. 4 Yet it was our weaknesses he carried; it was our sorrows that weighed him down. And we thought his troubles were a punishment from God, a punishment for his own sins! 5 But he was pierced for our rebellion, crushed for our sins. He was beaten so we could be whole. He was whipped so we could be healed. 6 All of us, like sheep, have strayed away. We have left God’s paths to follow our own. Yet the LORD laid on him the sins of us all. 7 He was oppressed and treated harshly, yet he never said a word. He was led like a lamb to the slaughter. And as a sheep is silent before the shearers, he did not open his mouth. 8 Unjustly condemned, he was led away. No one cared that he died without descendants, that his life was cut short in midstream. But he was struck down for the rebellion of my people. 9 He had done no wrong and had never deceived anyone. But he was buried like a criminal; he was put in a rich man’s grave.

Mark 10: 34 34 They will mock him, spit on him, flog him with a whip, and kill him, but after three days he will rise again.”

It makes me sick to my stomach to think of the pain Jesus went through on Good Friday. The name for this day is deceiving. What is pleasant about what happened to Jesus on this day. Yes, ok, I know it had to happen. I understand if He was not treated so He would not have risen on the third day. We would not have a way to be made right with God. But, let’s really reflect on what happened on this day.

They whipped Him until He was barely recognizable. Romans are known for their forms of inhumane torture. All this because the Jews were afraid of change, afraid people would side with Jesus and not them? This painful interruption multiplies joy. But, put yourself in the crowd. What feelings come up?

If I was there at the time and not knowing what I know now. Just a person in the crowd, I would have been angry. Knowing me I would not be out in the streets following the crowd. I would be hiding in my house trying to not know what is going on. That is normally how I react to tragedies going on around me. If I do not know the person I stay home, I pray for them, and move on with my life.

How callous of me, or is it fear? Fear of being involved, fear of not being able to do anything about it? Tell me the truth, how would you have reacted if you were in the crowd with Jesus carrying the cross? What would you have done on that first Good Friday Holiday?

But, what we do know now. We know God’s purpose in Jesus’s pain. We can experience joy God can only give. What guilt though that can bring up. For us, Jesus was tortured and died. Because of our evil nature Jesus was punished. How selfish we can be. Because we needed more than the perfect garden God gave us.

Good Friday Holiday
looking up at an empty cross from the ground

This Holiday lets reflect on our part of Jesus’s death. Ask for forgiveness. Really let Jesus search your heart. Let Him and what He went through change you from the inside out. If He has the power to go from that torture to bring in joy God can only produce, He has all the power to kill the sin that is holding us back today. I believe this is God’s purpose in putting the sins of the world on Jesus as He was crucified. So that our sins died right along with Him.

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Good Friday
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Oh the Deep, Deep Love of Jesus – by S. Trevor Francis 

This song speaks of devotion to Jesus, the Savior of the world. Mr. Samuel Trevor Francis was the son of an artist. He was born at Cheshunt, Herts, in 1835, and was a merchant in London. For more information about this song Mr. Francis, click this link; this link.

This song focuses on the characteristic of the love of God, found in Jesus Christ. If there was one scripture verse that captures this love, it is Rom. 5:8 – “For God demonstrates His own love in this: While we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.”

1 O the deep, deep love of Jesus,
vast, unmeasured, boundless, free,
rolling as a mighty ocean
in its fullness over me.
Underneath me, all around me,
is the current of Thy love;
leading onward, leading homeward
to my glorious rest above.

2 O the deep, deep love of Jesus,
spread His praise from shore to shore!
How He loveth, ever loveth, 
changeth never, nevermore!
How He watcheth o’er His loved ones,
died to call them all His own;
how for them He intercedeth,
watcheth o’er them from the throne.

3 O the deep, deep love of Jesus,
love of ev’ry love the best;
’tis an ocean vast of blessing,
’tis a haven sweet of rest.
O the deep, deep love of Jesus,
’tis heav’n of heav’ns to me;
and it lifts me up to glory,
for it lifts me up to Thee.