feeling unloved

In this chapter Jacob arrives at his relatives property and meets Rachel at the well. As he spends time with them he falls in love with Rachel. But when it comes time to marry her he is tricked and ends up with Leah. I am not really sure what was meant by saying Leah had bad eyes. Maybe that she was not as pretty as Rachel? Does not matter though because we see here that she is feeling unloved by husband

But God sees this, how she is being treated unfairly and He blesses her. The blessing may not be an easy blessing for her to live with. After all God cursed women with painful childbirth. Then raising all the children while Jacob is out in the fields. One thing that gets me though, if Jacob did not love her then why did make it so that she could have so many children? What was his thinking? I guess maybe it was that in culture back then they did not have a way to divorce yet. He was just doing his duty as a husband. 

Feeling Unloved by Husband

If he was just doing his duty just think of how devastating it was to Leah’s ego, her self worth. God knew she needed comfort. He also knew the bond between child and mother. To give her the love she yearned for, to show her that God sees her, He gave her many children. 

I know when I felt unloved by my husband, even by the world I yearned for a child. I felt like at least that way someone would love me. But, the truth of the matter is that kids are hard work! Giving birth hurts more than some of the worst physical pain that is out there. Then raising them to be responsible adults takes every inch of energy out of a person.

What kind of blessing is that then? It is one of the best blessings I think. I feel I need to acknowledge those who cannot have children though. I know He has blessings for you that are beyond what anyone could imagine. He has a plan for everyone who believes in Him. 

Feeling unloved by husband

Let’s go back to Leah though. She has not suffered through child birth and has all these kids to raise. I am pretty sure as she is human that at times she wondered if she could really make it through some days. She already was self conscious I am sure because of her looks and how Jacob complained about marrying her. Now her husband only sleeps with her out of duty and these kids are underfoot all the time. Even  resenting her as I am sure all kids go through those feelings at times. 

feeling unloved by husband
feeling unloved by husband

feeling unloved by husband

Even through these struggling circumstances the Bible says God kept blessing her. He did not change the situation, maybe He even compounded it. But, because He had a plan and He saw she needed someone in her life to love her. He gave her child after child. 

What I take from this chapter is that sometimes God’s blessings can add more responsibility. When that happens we may turn to grumbling against God. But if we can be like Leah and see each and every new child as God’s blessing what better attitude could that give us. Maybe God has you living in some poor conditions. If we look past the circumstances and see even the small blessings can help make things more bearable. 

Are you able to look past your circumstances and see some positive. Something, some how see God’s hand is there with you still? If you need someone to pray and talk with you I am here for you. 

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Is Fear Holding You Back

Is Fear Holding You Back

What is God calling you to do?

God says in the Bible over and over do not fear, but sometimes that emotion is beyond our control. What do we do then? Do we just give in to our feelings? Allowing them to keep us from experiencing all that God has for us? Or, do we keep pushing forward beyond our fears? For me I lived by my feelings, they limited my life for so long. My anxiety held me back, and to sooth my fears I would eat. It became so disabling. I could not fully experience what God had for me.

is fear holding you back

Let me list a few of the Bible verses on what God says about fear:

Isaiah 35:4 New Living Translation (NLT)

Say to those with fearful hearts,
    “Be strong, and do not fear,
for your God is coming to destroy your enemies.
    He is coming to save you.”

John 14:27 New Living Translation (NLT)

27 “I am leaving you with a gift—peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid.

Joshua 1:9 New Living Translation (NLT)

This is my command—be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”

Matthew 6:34 New Living Translation (NLT)

34 “So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s trouble is enough for today.

Isaiah 43:1 New Living Translation (NLT)

The Savior of Israel

43 But now, O Jacob, listen to the Lord who created you.
    O Israel, the one who formed you says,
“Do not be afraid, for I have ransomed you.
    I have called you by name; you are mine.

Psalm 34:4 New Living Translation (NLT)

I prayed to the Lord, and he answered me.
    He freed me from all my fears.

is fear holding you back

I could list many more verses but there are too many for this article. God mentions fear over 500 times according to a Google search I just did. So this subject is huge in His eyes. Why do you think that is? What I think is that fear is what holds us back from fully experiencing God. He wants to bless us, to give us a life of peace and joy but if we let our emotions control us we cannot experience those positive aspects that can only come from God. We are not able to acknowledge the free gift thuat Jesus’ pain has given us.

Is Fear Holding You Back
street sign saying doubt & fear just ahead

is fear holding you back

Right now in my situation I could stay where I am and not let God help me grow more. The Lord is being faithful to the promise He gave me and leading my husband and I to our own home. But the details are so scary. I have been living under government assistance for all my adult life. Now my daughter is an adult and she is on my housing voucher with me. When I move I need to take my name off the voucher so she can use it on her own. The fear is that when I do that will I have to move right away. If I do, the house is not ready to be lived in. In order to look for apartments for my daughter to live in my name has to be off the voucher so landlords can see she has a legitimate way to pay rent. If we wait too long to look for an apartment for her she may not have one when she and both need to move out of our current apartment, then where will she go?

There are so many small details that have to work out just right for both of us. Details that only God can make just perfect. What I need to remember is that GOD IS IN CONTROL! God says do not fear so many times in the Bible. We are His creation, His precious people who He loves and cares for. He brought us to this, He will bring us through it.

What do you fear today? Is it holding you back from doing the next best thing the Lord wants you to do? How do you handle the emotion fear? Lets discuss this in the comments below or in our Life Group on Facebook.

 
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Trusting in Jesus Home Page

Hundreds of articles and studies on the Trusting in Jesus website to help you find the peace, joy, and hope that only the Savior can provide.


Simply trusting every day – Hymn

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gratitude essay

Gratitude Essay

As I prayed and thought about the post for today I wondered just how many ways, how many times can we write about being thankful? I thought I would start out with gratitude this week. What it is, and what it is not.

In researching the internet, you know the ever faithful “Google”. I find that there is a trend going around called “Positive Psychology.” I thought I would include some of what I found in this gratitude essay.

What is gratitude?

One article I found from Positive Psychology Program listed some definitions of gratitude that I thought may help us understand this elusive feeling. I know we all want the feel good, happy, pleasant feelings all the time and sometimes it seems they are so far away. So, let’s just see just how science today defines gratitude:

“if we acquire a good through exchange, effort or achievement, or by right, then we don’t typically feel gratitude. Gratitude is an emotion we feel in response to receiving something good which is undeserved” (Lacewing, 2016).

I like this definition because it seems to match the Bible. God gives us what we do not deserve. All of us here on earth are sinful, we do not deserve the strength, the health, or even to be alive. We do not deserve the hope of heaven. We deserve hell if anything.

Another definition for this gratitude essay is:

“an emotion that is typically evoked when one receives costly, unexpected, and intentionally rendered benefits, and is thought to play a key role in regulating the initiation and maintenance of social relationships” (Forster et al., 2017).

What happens when someone gives you something or does something you never expected? Does that help you feel good for that person? I may be struggling with this a bit though. I tend to let history cloud my gratitude when someone who has hurt me does something nice.

gratitude essay
an open book

I tend to use my marriage as an example a bit much lately. But it is what is on my mind all the time. I am trying to let God teach me to be the wife my husband deserves, and let God do the work He needs to do in my husband. But, here is an example of the past clouding my gratitude.

My personal experience for this gratitude essay

Just recently my husband bought me a coffee from a local coffee shop. Automatically my thoughts of the many times that he would insist on buying the expensive coffees when we are broke came to mind. The hurt, the fear of how we are going to make it.

What did not come to mind is all the times I expressed to him I needed more than just physical love from him. I needed to be appreciated, loved for who I am. I did not express gratitude that he thought of me, only me in buying that coffee. I let my hurt and pain stay and cloud my judgment.

That attitude did not help our relationship. My husband was making a grand gesture that he could do with our circumstances. I stopped myself I looked at him and said, “What I should say to you is thank you very much, I really appreciate that you thought of me.”

Final thoughts for this gratitude essay

You see, it is so easy to lose sight of being thankful. Even when a person is trying their hardest to do something nice. Something to say I know you are hurting let me do this to try to make up for it. Yes, ok a bought coffee will not make up for everything. But it is a step. I need to make a step in learning to be grateful instead of letting the past hold us back.

What about you? Do you have trouble expressing gratitude when someone you are upset with does something nice? Please share your ideas with us! Would love to have you join our community and join the discussion in our Thankful Thursday group!

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Essay on Gratitude#1 Essay on Gratitude Towards Parents. Gratitude is one of the most underestimated ways anyone can use to enrich their lives. It is the feeling and attitude of …
Billy Graham: How to Be Thankful in All ThingsNov 21, 2017  But even so, we all have much to be thankful for. Look with me at … A spirit of thanksgiving is always the mark of a joyous Christian. Why should …
10 Things You Can Be Thankful For Today | CruWe’re told in 1 Thessalonians 5:18 to give thanks in everything. … I know that I have been made right with You because of my faith in Your Son, Jesus Christ. 2.
How To Be Truly Thankful- 4 Tips to Develop Christian Gratitude …Nov 4, 2017  Do you feel it? There’s almost an unspoken pressure in the realm of Christian social media circles to be thankful for each day you have on earth …
4 Reasons We Can Be Thankful in Times of TroubleNov 23, 2017  As Christians we can be thankful that we are children of the sovereign Lord. Even when our life seems to be spinning out of control, we can trust …
30 Christian Quotes about ThankfulnessNov 14, 2016  1 Thing Christians Forget to be Thankful For – Why would I be thankfulfor these things? These horrible, depressing times of life? Because one …
5 things to be thankful for no matter what“In everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.” 1 Thessalonians 5:18. What is so special about thankfulness is that thoughts like …
Why is giving thanks to God important?First Thessalonians 5:18 says, “In everything give thanks; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.” We are to be thankful not only for the things we like, but for …
The Power of a Thankful HeartNov 18, 2015  “Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus” – (1 Thessalonians 5:16-18).
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be a light

Day 37 of 100 – “Fulfill promises to Jews and be a light to the Gentiles”
be a light
Isaiah 42:6 – I am the Lord, I have called you in righteousness, I have taken you by the hand and kept you; I have given you as a covenant to the people, a light to the nations,

  •  Isaiah 49:6 – he says, “It is too light a thing that you should be my servant to raise up the tribes of Jacob and to restore the survivors of Israel; I will give you as a light to the nations, that my salvation may reach to the end of the earth.”
  • Luke 2:32 – a light for revelation to the Gentiles and for glory to your people Israel.
  • Acts 26:23 – that the Messiah must suffer, and that, by being the first to rise from the dead, he would proclaim light both to our people and to the Gentiles.

Jesus is a shepherd
  • Day 35 of 100 prophecies – Jesus is a shepherd who takes care of his sheep
    jesus is a shepherd
    Jesus is still a shepherd who takes care of His sheep.
  • Is. 40:10-11 – See, the Lord God comes with might, and his arm rules for him; his reward is with him, and his recompense before him. 11 He will feed his flock like a shepherd; he will gather the lambs in his arms, and carry them in his bosom, and gently lead the mother sheep.
  • John 10:11 – “I am the good shepherd. The good shepherd lays down his life for the sheep.
  • Heb. 13:20 – Now may the God of peace, who brought back from the dead our Lord Jesus, the great shepherd of the sheep, by the blood of the eternal covenant,
  • 1 Pet. 2:25 – For you were going astray like sheep, but now you have returned to the shepherd and guardian of your souls.

I am alive today

I am alive today

As I sit here with my knees hurting ever so bad, I think of how grateful I am alive today. At least I am alive to feel this pain, to suffer through the circumstances. God’s purpose in my life has not been fully fulfilled yet. I still have things to learn so He can use me in his plan for my life. This morning I would like to share some of my past posts. Some of the reasons I am thankful I am where I am today. Some of my testimony of the direction God’s purpose has been taking. To show how my life is a testimony for Jesus.

I am alive today
A road going through the woods with the words I am grateful for being alive today. It is my joy and pleasure to live another wonderful day.

I am alive today

What about you? Are you able to look back through your life and see the direction God is taking you? What are your passions, what you love? What about what makes you angry, so fed up to see injustice in the world? What experiences and circumstances have you lived through? Have you ever wondered what is God’s purpose for your life? I know I am alive today so God can show that my testimony for Jesus. To share my story and how God has provided, shaped, and given me strength through it all. Do you think you have a life story that could help others see Jesus through it? There is always room here for other peoples stories. Just reach out to me here, lets talk about it:Prayer/Support 

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A Testimony of God’s Love | Light and Life MagazineApr 29, 2017  A Testimony of God’s Love. 2 years ago written by Ken Stenstrom. pexels-photo- 348520. “Sweet are the promises, kind is the word, Dearer far …
Christian Testimonials Of People Experiencing God’s Incredible Love!God Loves You For Who He IS – Not Because Of What You Do Or Don’t Do … If you are interested in having a testimony, sermon or teaching transcribed to print …
Testimony Of God’s LoveGod has delivered me and I shall glorify Him. It gives me unspeakable joy to testify of God’sgoodness in my life. In April of 1999 my life was falling apart in all
Christian Testimony, Stories Of God’s LoveA christian testimony is a powerful tool in pointing others to the savior.
Powerful Testimony: Sharing God’s Love in the Midst of Tragedy …Dec 25, 2004  Ken Ham interviews Frank and Sue Zitzman about the tragic death of their 17- year-old son and the way God is using them to minister to others …
To Experience God’s LoveApr 21, 2014  Colin Smith recounts testimonies of God’s love, gives steps to experience more of God’s love, and gives two responses to God’s love.
Our Lives Are a Testimony to Jesus and the Power of Love and …Nov 21, 2018  It is with thanksgiving that I celebrate ALL those who have inspired me in the doing of the work of Camp and Retreat Ministries. Your life and …
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obey

Obey

This chapter we find Abraham getting ready to sacrifice his promised son, his heir. I think about this command from God as a parent myself and wonder just how could this be? The thought of giving up one of my children because God told me to, I am not sure I could do it. But maybe because God gave Abraham Isaac in his old age it was easier for him to obey God. The thought that if God could do that, it is possible He could do it again.

obey
Someone climbing a mountain and words in the sky say believe+love+obey=victory in Yeshua 1 John 5:1-5
Obey

I think about my own life, how many times have I done what God says just to obey? So much of my life I felt like I needed to be in control, to know what, and how something will happen. I thought it was the safe way to live as so much of my life things happened that were out of my control.

Before my teen years I was sexually abused by a family member, soon after a neighbor boy tried to take advantage of me. In my teen years a young man also sexually abused me along with my first husband. When I felt safe and could move on from all that I met my current husband and major sexual issues got in the way again.

I got to the point that so many things out of my control happened that I had to control everything in my life. Obeying God who did not reveal His plan was out of the question. I knew God was real, I had the God desire in my heart. But I was too hurt and afraid to blindly obey Him.

Obey

But, how did I get from my total mistrust to being able to trust and obey God today? I would say that it was seeing how God chose me and provided for me. There were so many times in raising my three adult children we should have been homeless. There was a time my children should have been placed in foster care. While it is true the circumstances warranted I needed to place only one, the other two stayed with me.

In seeing how God protected and orchestrated things around us I came to trust God. I learned that no matter what I did He would make His work out. Because of that I came to believe that doing things His way would make His plan much easier on me and those around us. That in doing things His way I gained peace, knowledge, hope beyond my understanding.

Obey

Are you able to obey God? Or are there thoughts and fears keeping you from trusting that God has this? Is there anything you would like prayer for, to talk about?

Former Genesis chapters

Lies, Are All Lies The Same? What Does God Say? The World?

Lies, are they all bad?

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Step 6: The Christian and Obedience | Cru

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Obedience to God – Is obeying God essential to a Christian’s daily walk and spiritual growth? Discover what the Bible says.

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What does the Bible say about obedience?

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annointed king

Day 5 of 100 prophecies fulfilled by Jesus – born of the tribe of Judah

Be born of the tribe of Judah – Gen. 49:8-10; Micah 5:2
NT – Mat. 1:2, 3 ; Heb. 7;14; Rev. 5:5

Gen. 49:8-10 – 8Judah,b your brothers shall praise you. Your hand shall be on the necks of your enemies; your father’s sons shall bow down to you. 9Judah is a young lion— my son, you return from the prey. Like a lion, he crouches and lies down; like a lioness, who dares to rouse him? 10The scepter will not depart from Judah, nor the staff from between his feet,c until Shiloh comes and the allegiance of the nations is his.

Micah 5:2 – But you, Bethlehem Ephrathah, who are small among the clans of Judah, out of you will come forth for Me One to be ruler over Israel, whose origins are of old, from the days of eternity.

Mat. 1:2, 3 – Abraham was the father of Isaac, Isaac the father of Jacob, and Jacob the father of Judah and his brothers. Judah was the father of Perez and Zerah by Tamar, Perez the father of Hezron, and Hezron the father of Ram.

Heb.7;14 – For it is clear that our Lord descended from Judah, a tribe as to which Moses said nothing about priests.
Rev. 5:5 – Then one of the elders said to me, “Do not weep! Behold, the Lion of the tribe of Judah, the root of David, has triumphed to open the scroll and its seven seals.”

Old man

Thoughts (From Toni Nichols) – “What does the Lord think about our bodies?”
Toni Nichols

I have been thinking about my imperfect, broken and somewhat deformed body, and speaking with my Mom tonight, whose body is a captive of Parkinson’s I asked her, “What do you think the Lord thinks about our bodies?”

There was silence.

Consider how in the Old Testament nothing deformed could approach the Holy of Holies, or be offered as a sacrifice to the Lord.

But we have our answer in the Old Testament book of Isaiah and the subsequent accountings of the life of Christ in the New Testament. It is clear what He thinks.

“Isaiah 53

Who has believed our message
and to whom has the arm of the Lord been revealed?
He grew up before him like a tender shoot,
and like a root out of dry ground.
He had no beauty or majesty to attract us to him,
nothing in his appearance that we should desire him.
He was despised and rejected by mankind,
a man of suffering, and familiar with pain.
Like one from whom people hide their faces
he was despised, and we held him in low esteem.
Surely he took up our pain
and bore our suffering,
yet we considered him punished by God,
stricken by him, and afflicted.
But he was pierced for our transgressions,
he was crushed for our iniquities;
the punishment that brought us peace was on him,
and by his wounds we are healed.
We all, like sheep, have gone astray,
each of us has turned to our own way;
and the Lord has laid on him
the iniquity of us all.
He was oppressed and afflicted,
yet he did not open his mouth;
he was led like a lamb to the slaughter,
and as a sheep before its shearers is silent,
so he did not open his mouth.
By oppression and judgment he was taken away.
Yet who of his generation protested?
For he was cut off from the land of the living;
for the transgression of my people he was punished.
He was assigned a grave with the wicked,
and with the rich in his death,
though he had done no violence,
nor was any deceit in his mouth.
Yet it was the Lord’s will to crush him and cause him to suffer,
and though the Lord makes his life an offering for sin,
he will see his offspring and prolong his days,
and the will of the Lord will prosper in his hand.
After he has suffered,
he will see the light of life and be satisfied;
by his knowledge my righteous servant will justify many,
and he will bear their iniquities.
Therefore I will give him a portion among the great,
and he will divide the spoils with the strong,
because he poured out his life unto death,
and was numbered with the transgressors.
For he bore the sin of many,
and made intercession for the transgressors.”

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where is God

Where is God

It has been a crazy few days. My youngest getting sick and then sharing the germs with me. Then as I check the homes for sale I find a mobile home right across the street from my in laws! Perfect spot, perfect amount of space, and some possibility of being able to afford it. But, in that all my in laws are dealing with some pretty major health issues. Things that could affect their ability to help us. My emotions have been so up and down! I started wondering where is God in all this?!

My youngest son and I are pretty much over the cold. So, God helped us through that. But, soon after that my in laws were hit with health issues. Today my mother in law is going in for a test that could determine if she needs surgery or not. Also, my father in law is having trouble controlling his blood sugar levels. He has a month to get his A1c3 down or he could lose his commercial drivers license. That is his job! His business! Their only income! Where is God in all this?! What is God’s purpose in these struggles? Could He really have faith in us to hold true to Him?

In his worry my father in law starts to worry and try to control others around him. I and my daughter came to his mind. He knows how hard it is when starting out on your own. See, when my husband and I move in together my daughter will move to her own place for the first time in her life. You can read up more on her and the situation between my husband, and her disability under the key word my testimony. This worry of my father in laws lead him to try to tell me and her what needs to be done. Which triggered my emotional reaction of having someone tell me how to parent when I have been a single parent and raised her to adulthood. Where is God in these emotions? What is God’s purpose in these interactions?

I calmed down, prayed and talked to my mother in law. For right now they both seem to understand why things cannot be done the way he wants them done. But, now this mobile home I mentioned earlier. My hope, excitement and wanting to figure out just how that home can become ours was over the top. It would mean my in laws would not need to make all the renovations on their house to accommodate us moving in. But, we would still be right there to help each other. All day yesterday my thoughts were racing, I was checking things, talking, researching. All the while trying to say ok God, I know when I try to do things I mess them up you need to do it. But still I let my emotions take my research and thoughts to areas they should not have gone. Where is God in these emotions? What is God’s purpose?

What I have learned in my studies about God is that He uses you, He wants to use even you who is reading this right now. If you are like me in situations similar to what I described above you experienced overwhelming emotions too. How can He use you in these troubling times? What I see is that as we deal with the emotions we need to lean in more, to fight more to talk to Him. If all you can do is say Praise Jesus while trying to draw on His strength to find an even keel then do that. Once you find that center on God, is where He can use you.

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A forest with the words “You can never go where God is Not” Max Lucado

Today, I have that center and I am seeing, for just this little bit, how God can use me. Through these emotions I felt God calling me to read His Word. To really study it and focus on Him. I did that. I am doing a read the Bible through a year plan on YouVersion Bible App, plus a study with my husband and a study with some church leaders. He calmed me down, reassured me that no matter what happens with my in laws health, or the mobile home He is still in control. I need to focus on the goals He gave me in life, not my goals. The first goal is to put Him first in everything, and then to live my life so others can see Him through me. So, I will pray for my in laws like never before. I will pray for the people who are in the mobile home as they are in financial trouble or more. I will trust that God will bring the home for my husband and I when we need it, not when we think it is best. In all this I have achieved joy God can only give.

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