Mental health series, part 2 – What it is like to have psychosis

sketch of a brain splattered by multiple colors, like a finger painting

                                                                               traumatized brain


Here is a big question for you: “What is it like to have psychosis?” I pray that you and I never find out. I know has got to be scary. I would ask that we join together to pray for those with mental illness. May they come to know the love, grace, security, and peace of Christ, and may they find help for their illness.

Follow the link below for the full article. It is very informative and well worth your time. 

What it is like to have psychosis

The air conditioner problem was both internal and external. How is that like us?

Outdoor air conditioner

                              Air conditioner

Yesterday our air conditioner started making an awful rattling noise. We noticed it in the morning and ignored it. By afternoon it was worse. We knew we needed to call a repairman. It was strange that the air conditioner was cooling good but is still sounded awful and smelled bad.

So what was the problem? The first problem the technician noticed is some insulation that was loose. It was getting sucked into the fan. We all thought this was an easy fix until the repairman noticed that the fan was off-kilter. It was out of balance. As a result, it damaged the bearings of the motor. So now we had a big problem. 

Today, two different repairmen came and put in the new fan and new motor. That new motor was so quiet we could hardly hear it running. The repairmen left and we waited for the new parts to work and to cool our house down. It was around 76 degrees when they left. So we waited, and waited, and waited, and the house kept getting hotter (83 degrees.) I reported the problem and soon found out the last piece of the puzzle. The reason the house was not cooling is that the outside unit was turned off. The repairman yesterday turned it off to keep the unit from coming on while he was doing his investigation.

So here’s how this applies to our lives.

The problem with the air conditioner started when something was loose and got sucked in. This happens to us, too, when we let sin creep into our lives. That may come from our not turning away when someone is not dressed decently or when they use foul language on TV, or even in person, or from other sources of temptation. At some point, we need to resist the evil around us and build a wall or protection around our heart, mind, and spirit. We need to keep the junk from settling into our heart. 

The other problem was that there was power on the inside unit (compare to Jesus in our heart), but no power to the outside unit. Sometimes we don’t apply the power we have in us by way of the Spirit and the power of the Word of God. We don’t do anything with it. We don’t act on the word.

So what do we need to do?

Application points:
1.) Keep junk, including bad attitudes and unforgiveness, from entering into your heart.

2.) Lay all that stuff aside and look to Jesus. We need to let Him in.

3.) Keep seeking the presence, the peace, and the power of God. His power is always there. We need to make ourselves available to it.

Hebrews 12: 1 – Therefore, since we have so great a cloud of witnesses surrounding us, let us also lay aside every encumbrance and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us.

Prayers requested for myself and for all site members

Please spend some time in prayer for myself and all site members. I am having some occasional hip pain. I don’t know whether it is muscle, nerve, or the hip (right now it’s the right hip. Sometimes it’s the left one. I will be on Medicare on Aug. 1 and plan to set up a “welcome to Medicare” appointment. I have been without insurance for 13 years and the Lord has sustained me through it all. I think the Medicare will help a lot. 

Site members, I haven’t forgotten about you. As I am reminded of your needs, I pray for you. I know of needs you, your neighbors, and your families. So many others have needs far greater than mine. We all need the Lord’s help, and that comes through prayers for wisdom, peace, provision, healing, and whatever else the Lord wants to do in and through us.

prayers requested

                                  Prayers requested

gratitude essay

Gratitude Essay

As I prayed and thought about the post for today I wondered just how many ways, how many times can we write about being thankful? I thought I would start out with gratitude this week. What it is, and what it is not.

In researching the internet, you know the ever faithful “Google”. I find that there is a trend going around called “Positive Psychology.” I thought I would include some of what I found in this gratitude essay.

What is gratitude?

One article I found from Positive Psychology Program listed some definitions of gratitude that I thought may help us understand this elusive feeling. I know we all want the feel good, happy, pleasant feelings all the time and sometimes it seems they are so far away. So, let’s just see just how science today defines gratitude:

“if we acquire a good through exchange, effort or achievement, or by right, then we don’t typically feel gratitude. Gratitude is an emotion we feel in response to receiving something good which is undeserved” (Lacewing, 2016).

I like this definition because it seems to match the Bible. God gives us what we do not deserve. All of us here on earth are sinful, we do not deserve the strength, the health, or even to be alive. We do not deserve the hope of heaven. We deserve hell if anything.

Another definition for this gratitude essay is:

“an emotion that is typically evoked when one receives costly, unexpected, and intentionally rendered benefits, and is thought to play a key role in regulating the initiation and maintenance of social relationships” (Forster et al., 2017).

What happens when someone gives you something or does something you never expected? Does that help you feel good for that person? I may be struggling with this a bit though. I tend to let history cloud my gratitude when someone who has hurt me does something nice.

gratitude essay
an open book

I tend to use my marriage as an example a bit much lately. But it is what is on my mind all the time. I am trying to let God teach me to be the wife my husband deserves, and let God do the work He needs to do in my husband. But, here is an example of the past clouding my gratitude.

My personal experience for this gratitude essay

Just recently my husband bought me a coffee from a local coffee shop. Automatically my thoughts of the many times that he would insist on buying the expensive coffees when we are broke came to mind. The hurt, the fear of how we are going to make it.

What did not come to mind is all the times I expressed to him I needed more than just physical love from him. I needed to be appreciated, loved for who I am. I did not express gratitude that he thought of me, only me in buying that coffee. I let my hurt and pain stay and cloud my judgment.

That attitude did not help our relationship. My husband was making a grand gesture that he could do with our circumstances. I stopped myself I looked at him and said, “What I should say to you is thank you very much, I really appreciate that you thought of me.”

Final thoughts for this gratitude essay

You see, it is so easy to lose sight of being thankful. Even when a person is trying their hardest to do something nice. Something to say I know you are hurting let me do this to try to make up for it. Yes, ok a bought coffee will not make up for everything. But it is a step. I need to make a step in learning to be grateful instead of letting the past hold us back.

What about you? Do you have trouble expressing gratitude when someone you are upset with does something nice? Please share your ideas with us! Would love to have you join our community and join the discussion in our Thankful Thursday group!

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Essay on Gratitude#1 Essay on Gratitude Towards Parents. Gratitude is one of the most underestimated ways anyone can use to enrich their lives. It is the feeling and attitude of …
Billy Graham: How to Be Thankful in All ThingsNov 21, 2017  But even so, we all have much to be thankful for. Look with me at … A spirit of thanksgiving is always the mark of a joyous Christian. Why should …
10 Things You Can Be Thankful For Today | CruWe’re told in 1 Thessalonians 5:18 to give thanks in everything. … I know that I have been made right with You because of my faith in Your Son, Jesus Christ. 2.
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30 Christian Quotes about ThankfulnessNov 14, 2016  1 Thing Christians Forget to be Thankful For – Why would I be thankfulfor these things? These horrible, depressing times of life? Because one …
5 things to be thankful for no matter what“In everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.” 1 Thessalonians 5:18. What is so special about thankfulness is that thoughts like …
Why is giving thanks to God important?First Thessalonians 5:18 says, “In everything give thanks; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.” We are to be thankful not only for the things we like, but for …
The Power of a Thankful HeartNov 18, 2015  “Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus” – (1 Thessalonians 5:16-18).
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Old man

Thoughts (From Toni Nichols) – “What does the Lord think about our bodies?”
Toni Nichols

I have been thinking about my imperfect, broken and somewhat deformed body, and speaking with my Mom tonight, whose body is a captive of Parkinson’s I asked her, “What do you think the Lord thinks about our bodies?”

There was silence.

Consider how in the Old Testament nothing deformed could approach the Holy of Holies, or be offered as a sacrifice to the Lord.

But we have our answer in the Old Testament book of Isaiah and the subsequent accountings of the life of Christ in the New Testament. It is clear what He thinks.

“Isaiah 53

Who has believed our message
and to whom has the arm of the Lord been revealed?
He grew up before him like a tender shoot,
and like a root out of dry ground.
He had no beauty or majesty to attract us to him,
nothing in his appearance that we should desire him.
He was despised and rejected by mankind,
a man of suffering, and familiar with pain.
Like one from whom people hide their faces
he was despised, and we held him in low esteem.
Surely he took up our pain
and bore our suffering,
yet we considered him punished by God,
stricken by him, and afflicted.
But he was pierced for our transgressions,
he was crushed for our iniquities;
the punishment that brought us peace was on him,
and by his wounds we are healed.
We all, like sheep, have gone astray,
each of us has turned to our own way;
and the Lord has laid on him
the iniquity of us all.
He was oppressed and afflicted,
yet he did not open his mouth;
he was led like a lamb to the slaughter,
and as a sheep before its shearers is silent,
so he did not open his mouth.
By oppression and judgment he was taken away.
Yet who of his generation protested?
For he was cut off from the land of the living;
for the transgression of my people he was punished.
He was assigned a grave with the wicked,
and with the rich in his death,
though he had done no violence,
nor was any deceit in his mouth.
Yet it was the Lord’s will to crush him and cause him to suffer,
and though the Lord makes his life an offering for sin,
he will see his offspring and prolong his days,
and the will of the Lord will prosper in his hand.
After he has suffered,
he will see the light of life and be satisfied;
by his knowledge my righteous servant will justify many,
and he will bear their iniquities.
Therefore I will give him a portion among the great,
and he will divide the spoils with the strong,
because he poured out his life unto death,
and was numbered with the transgressors.
For he bore the sin of many,
and made intercession for the transgressors.”

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where is God

Where is God

It has been a crazy few days. My youngest getting sick and then sharing the germs with me. Then as I check the homes for sale I find a mobile home right across the street from my in laws! Perfect spot, perfect amount of space, and some possibility of being able to afford it. But, in that all my in laws are dealing with some pretty major health issues. Things that could affect their ability to help us. My emotions have been so up and down! I started wondering where is God in all this?!

My youngest son and I are pretty much over the cold. So, God helped us through that. But, soon after that my in laws were hit with health issues. Today my mother in law is going in for a test that could determine if she needs surgery or not. Also, my father in law is having trouble controlling his blood sugar levels. He has a month to get his A1c3 down or he could lose his commercial drivers license. That is his job! His business! Their only income! Where is God in all this?! What is God’s purpose in these struggles? Could He really have faith in us to hold true to Him?

In his worry my father in law starts to worry and try to control others around him. I and my daughter came to his mind. He knows how hard it is when starting out on your own. See, when my husband and I move in together my daughter will move to her own place for the first time in her life. You can read up more on her and the situation between my husband, and her disability under the key word my testimony. This worry of my father in laws lead him to try to tell me and her what needs to be done. Which triggered my emotional reaction of having someone tell me how to parent when I have been a single parent and raised her to adulthood. Where is God in these emotions? What is God’s purpose in these interactions?

I calmed down, prayed and talked to my mother in law. For right now they both seem to understand why things cannot be done the way he wants them done. But, now this mobile home I mentioned earlier. My hope, excitement and wanting to figure out just how that home can become ours was over the top. It would mean my in laws would not need to make all the renovations on their house to accommodate us moving in. But, we would still be right there to help each other. All day yesterday my thoughts were racing, I was checking things, talking, researching. All the while trying to say ok God, I know when I try to do things I mess them up you need to do it. But still I let my emotions take my research and thoughts to areas they should not have gone. Where is God in these emotions? What is God’s purpose?

What I have learned in my studies about God is that He uses you, He wants to use even you who is reading this right now. If you are like me in situations similar to what I described above you experienced overwhelming emotions too. How can He use you in these troubling times? What I see is that as we deal with the emotions we need to lean in more, to fight more to talk to Him. If all you can do is say Praise Jesus while trying to draw on His strength to find an even keel then do that. Once you find that center on God, is where He can use you.

where is God
A forest with the words “You can never go where God is Not” Max Lucado

Today, I have that center and I am seeing, for just this little bit, how God can use me. Through these emotions I felt God calling me to read His Word. To really study it and focus on Him. I did that. I am doing a read the Bible through a year plan on YouVersion Bible App, plus a study with my husband and a study with some church leaders. He calmed me down, reassured me that no matter what happens with my in laws health, or the mobile home He is still in control. I need to focus on the goals He gave me in life, not my goals. The first goal is to put Him first in everything, and then to live my life so others can see Him through me. So, I will pray for my in laws like never before. I will pray for the people who are in the mobile home as they are in financial trouble or more. I will trust that God will bring the home for my husband and I when we need it, not when we think it is best. In all this I have achieved joy God can only give.

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Stop seeking blessings and worldly riches and money from God. Seek the person JesusChrist. Go seek Jesus Christ now and you will find Him. Isa 55:6-7: Seek …
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